A lot of hoes give me they burgers & I ate them all.

My first blog, Excellent Italian Humanist, was devoted to the works of Federico Fellini, based on films watched in a class taught by Peter Bondanella, a scholar of Fellini's works and the author of The Cinema of Federico Fellini. I used this blog as an extension of my learnings, as well as to fulfill the requirements of the discussion section of the class.

Though I feel a bit overwhelmed by the number of irate morons swarming the web with bad grammar, poor punctuation and passive voice, I enjoy reading individual outlooks on certain things, namely news, photos and videos. I've decided to use this blog as an outlet for my journalistic ideas - to sort of organize everything and keep it in one place. I've been working on a 'zine for over a year now, and I just don't seem to have quite enough technical knowledge of the software I need to use or graphic design in general to actually finish.

Anyway, I do not want to read (or write) about college girls getting drunk, personalized accounts of emotional trauma, celebrity crap or fag-hag hipster bullshit.
SO... I..
will post my comics and photos,

sweet videos and shit I find,

(This kid knows how to hang! ..And utilize the digital revolution to full advantage?)

(This song gets really old if you're hanging out with me on a Friday. Leisl and I spent a good 45 minutes playing the trucker "titty touch" games at The Vid and yelling "THROW SUM CHEEZE ON THEM TITS!" every time we won.)
lyrics here.



...and respond to news and world events like Prince's new hip and Cuba's new President, as well as maybe post some shit about whatever album I'm currently most fond of.

Right now it's this;

Homework #103 CD: American "D.I.Y."/punkwave V-to-Z, '79-84

.....indie punkwave, post-punk & experimental from the letters V-to-Z, 1979-84. More cool tracks from the usual assortment of the underrated, unhinged, undisciplined and unknown. Zoomers, X-X, Velvet Monkeys, Yo, Vores, Voodoo Idols, XXOO, Y Pants, Wild Stares, WKGB, V:-, Xmas Eve, Zoo Types, Zyklon and Blake Xolton 23 tunes. Includes a never- released Zoomers track from 1979.

Buy it/ Check it out on HYPED TO DEATH.COM!

There are like 105 of these things, all alphabetical. I bought this one because it has a track by one of my favorite No Wave bands, Y Pants, founded by Barbara Ess - my idol of sorts. She was a filmmaker in London in the early 70s but made it back to her hometown of NYC for the postpunk scene of the late 70s and early 80s. She was married to Glenn Branca of Theoretical Girls and played in Theoretical Girls, Y Pants & The Static.

Pinhole Photo from I AM NOT THIS BODY

She's been a photographer since the early 80s and shoots almost everything with pinhole cameras that she builds. She concentrates on IMAGE, rather than technique - something I can relate to. However, the process itself is something that completes the aesthetic of the image.

My FAVORITE Photo from I AM NOT THIS BODY

A teacher I had in high school (The Miss Rachel Geesa) loaned me one of Ess's books, I AM NOT THIS BODY, to read and observe, without even knowing that I was already wrapped up in finding out everything I could about the No Wave scene.

Ess’s writings and photos were so easy for me to relate to as a dark, boyish teenage girl. I could totally empathize with her disregard for technical things, and her writing style – a prose-ish, wordy, one-liner style of paragraph writing about feelings, ideas and occurrences – was something I had already begun to see in my own writing.
I ended up starting a pinhole project inspired by her work, but getting off track and making a bunch of medium-format triple exposures.

Pinhole Photo from I AM NOT THIS BODY

Anyway, my boyfriend bought I AM NOT THIS BODY for me for my birthday last year.... without even knowing how influential the very same book had been to me years earlier.

Pinhole Photo from I AM NOT THIS BODY

Ess's photographs are distorted and weird, but this in a sense reveals meaning behind simplistic images...alllows us to see things for what they really are - at least in part. And isn't the whole of something defined by an addition of parts?

Pinhole Photo from I AM NOT THIS BODY

The world exists (for us) at this intersection between external, physical things and our own perception. While any photograph is a captured moment of disappearance AND occurrence, Ess’s photographs seem to bring to light this moment of disappearance… the idea that things will never be seen in this exact way again. Her simplistic, distorted figures make one feel that this is only a small part of a larger vision – and yet this magnified, singular occurrence illuminates so much about the rest of the world, and the surroundings of that particular moment.

Here is a photograph that Ess created for a gallery opening called "The Disappearance of the Mind/Body Problem". It is two contact prints on 8 x 10 UNFIXED photo paper. They are on the inside of a hinged box which was made to view the images for a few seconds at a time. Each viewing exposes the paper and makes the image disappear a bit more. By the end of the show, the images were gone.